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very powerful. i had a degree from cambridge。 i had a thriving career, but my self was a car crash, and i wound up with bulimia and on a therapist39。s couch. and of course i did. i still believed my self was all i was. i still valued selfworth above all other worth, and what was there to suggest otherwise? we39。ve created entire value systems and a physical reality to support the worth of self. look at the industry for selfimage and the jobs it creates, the revenue it turns over. we39。d be right in assuming that the self is an actual living thing. but it39。s not. it39。s a projection which our clever brains create in order to cheat ourselves from the reality of death. 奇怪的是,這個(gè)發(fā)現(xiàn)并沒有治好我的自卑,那種被排擠的感覺。我還是那么強(qiáng)烈地想要離開消失。我從劍橋拿到了學(xué)位,我有份充滿發(fā)展的工作,然而我的自我還是一團(tuán)糟,我得了催吐病不得不接受治療師的幫助。我還是相信自我是我的全部。我還是堅(jiān)信amp。ldquo。自我amp。rdquo。的價(jià)值甚過一切。而且我們身處的世界就是如此,我們的整個(gè)價(jià)值系統(tǒng)和現(xiàn)實(shí)環(huán)境都是在服務(wù)amp。ldquo。自我amp。rdquo。的價(jià)值??纯床煌袠I(yè)里面對(duì)于自我的塑造,看看它們創(chuàng)造的那些工作,產(chǎn)出的那些利潤。我們甚至必須相信自我是真實(shí)存在的。但它們不是,自我不過是我們聰明的腦袋假想出來騙自己不去思考死亡這個(gè)話題的幌子。 but there is something that can give the self ultimate and infinite connection and that thing is oneness, our essence. the self39。s struggle for authenticity and definition will never end unless it39。s connected to its creator to you and to me. and that can happen with awareness awareness of the reality of oneness and the projection of selfhood. for a start, we can think about all the times when we do lose ourselves. it happens when i dance, when i39。m acting. i39。m earthed in my essence, and my self is suspended. in those moments, i39。m connected to everything the ground, the air, the sounds, the energy from the audience. all my senses are alert and alive in much the same way as an infant might feel that feeling of oneness.