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在耶穌和兒子面前,他選擇了耶穌,而拋棄了兒子,親手把兒子送上斷頭臺,其實(shí)在亞瑟心中,這一切也是情有可原的,也是預(yù)料之中的事,但是他還是如同飛蛾撲火般成功地結(jié)束自己的生命,多么令人惋惜??!他堅(jiān)強(qiáng)、勇敢、無懼死亡是一個(gè)偉大的革命戰(zhàn)士,尤其是經(jīng)過革命鍛煉之后的牛虻,則是空了寂寞中把他壓垮的幽靈似的恐懼,虛偽世界里的幻像都隨產(chǎn)生他們的夜消失了,而一旦太陽光芒四射,敵人也出現(xiàn)他的面前,他便斗志激昂,再也無恐懼之言,革命把他鍛煉成一個(gè)如此出色的戰(zhàn)士,他勇敢。剛19歲的亞瑟有點(diǎn)像十六世紀(jì)肖像畫里面的意大利小伙子,從他那長長的睫毛,敏感的觜酥和嬌小的毛腳看,身體各個(gè)部位都顯得過分精致。但是我卻在流完了眼淚后恍惚覺得,他最后解脫了?!彼酀米齑桨l(fā)抖。我終是轉(zhuǎn)移了話題,將目光投向道路旁陰暗的模糊不清的樹影。作品在圍繞這這個(gè)大沖突中,還穿插著很多小沖突,比如牛虻和他的愛人瓊瑪之間,那更是包含著錯(cuò)綜復(fù)雜的矛盾,瓊瑪以為他是告密者,一個(gè)巴掌把他從意大利打到了南美,多少年的苦難,他全忍了下來,終于,他又回到了意大利,他又見到了瓊瑪,他們相愛,卻得不到永遠(yuǎn)。作為偉大的紅衣主教,選擇上帝是理所當(dāng)然的,基督被釘在十字架上,他注定是慈悲的,他注定可以接受所有人的懺悔,而他能做的,也僅僅是接受懺悔而已。當(dāng)時(shí)蒙太尼里調(diào)到羅馬當(dāng)了主教,警方的密探卡爾狄成了新的神甫。這就應(yīng)驗(yàn)了文學(xué)評論家勃蘭兌斯說過一句名言:“沒有沖突,就沒有悲劇。不管我活著,還是我死去,我都是一只牛虻,快樂地飛來飛去。她的沉著冷靜,她的堅(jiān)定不移和深明大義,都無愧于牛虻對她的執(zhí)著的愛。如果換上我,我也必定做出同樣的選擇,不得不把自己最心愛的人送上斷頭臺,最終導(dǎo)致自己的精神崩潰。他是眾矢之的的“敵人”,卻因慈愛善良而不失為一個(gè)圣人。因?yàn)樗吹搅讼M?,看到了他活下去的目?biāo)。我不能記起看過哪部小說有如此震驚、痛苦、惶惑而又釋然!結(jié)尾我讀了幾遍??墒敲商┠崂餂]有這樣做,他哭了,哭得很傷心,可是他的選擇依然是上帝,只有上帝……而當(dāng)蒙泰尼里終于醒悟,而真的必須面對天堂抑或地獄里的那個(gè)上帝時(shí),他又會說什么,他還愛上帝嗎?還堅(jiān)持自己的信仰嗎?他會后悔,一定會。在無數(shù)發(fā)子彈聲后,牛虻還是死了,全身都中了彈,可是死得那么堅(jiān)強(qiáng),那么燦爛。我疼惜沒一個(gè)人,他都都是站在時(shí)代的船上,他們看不見前方,只能隨波逐流,他們無法擁抱,只能把自己層層包裹,然后互相傷害。我疼惜瓊瑪,他們相愛,卻得不到永遠(yuǎn),她的誤解吧自己的矮人打到地獄,也打碎了他們之間的那根紐帶。他的疤痕安靜二柔和,卻又丑陋和可怕。用支離破碎的心重組生命,堅(jiān)持回來,帶著“革命者”的頭銜,帶著毀滅性的殘酷要變本加厲地吧痛苦償還給他人。當(dāng)時(shí),他才17歲。命運(yùn)就像一個(gè)貪玩的惡魔,捉弄著幸福的人。然而要想擁有堅(jiān)定的信仰并非易事,真正的信仰是建立在理性基礎(chǔ)上,必須經(jīng)過對馬列經(jīng)典著作、中國特色理論體系的系統(tǒng)和深入地學(xué)習(xí),必須真正理解馬克思主義,真正理解共產(chǎn)主義才可能樹立堅(jiān)定的信仰,并自覺地將這一信仰貫徹一生。”當(dāng)?shù)谝徊ㄉ鋼魶]有將牛虻打死時(shí),他又對那些劊子手喊道:“槍法壞透了呢,伙計(jì)們,再試一下看看!”正是這驚天地、泣鬼神的壯烈場面,這直沖霄漢的英勇氣魄,深深地打動(dòng)了我。t save China, more save China does not know, never know, the way he treated his own son, is very unfair, but he did not know God, he was puzzled by his mind, only the empty China finally wakes up, you must face the heaven or hell of the God, and he will say, he still love God? Also keep your faith? He would regret it, will will see, and the God was broken into pieces, he will put the heart away from God, he really loves, is his all this is already late, heaven is infinitely high, hell is a bottomless, he 39。s death, he had killed him, he is in God, and sons,decided to choose the false god, gave up so miserable and so need loving was destined to regret their decisions, he was destined to be your crazy, finally, great cardinal or crazy, or dead, God is not the God of mercy, not because of his loyalty and loyalty to is poor, Qiongma a slap him from Italy to South America, many years of suffering, he put down, finally, he returned to Italy, he saw Qiongma, they love each other, but not died, she cried in pain, he all the time, she was also as she know he is still alive, she can be relieved, she can forget their past mistakes, he once again living dead in front of was 17 years old, know God is just a hammer to knock out the clay sculpture, his beloved Padre lied to him, God is not a god of passion, one can rely on,