【正文】 gly strong, have governed my life:the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown吹刮 me hither到此處 and thither向那里 , in a wayward course over a deep ocean of anguish極度痛苦、苦惱 , reaching to the very verge路邊 of despair. I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy 【 e】狂喜 —ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of my life for a few hours for this joy. I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness —that terrible loneliness in which one shivering 顫抖的 consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss【 i】深淵、無底洞 . I have sought it, finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature 微型的 , the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined. This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what—at last—I have found. With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of men. I have wished to know why the stars shine ... A little of this, but not much, I have achieved. Love and knowledge, so far as they were possible, led upward toward the heavens. But always pity brought me back to earth. Echoes of cries of pain reverberate 【 ri?verbreit】回響 in my heart. Children in famine, victims tortured 嚴(yán)刑、酷刑 by oppressors【 0‘ pres0】壓迫者 , helpless old people —a hated burden to their sons, and the whole world of loneliness, poverty, and pain make a mockery 愚弄、嘲笑 of what human life should be. I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot, and I too suffer. This has been my life. I have found it worth living, and would gladly live it again if the chance were offered me. 5 The Blue Days Everybody has blue days. These are miserable days when you feel lousy[‘ laozi]很糟的 , grumpy暴躁的 , lonely, and utterly exhausted. Days when you feel small and insignificant, when everything seems just out of reach. You can?t rise to the occasion. Just getting started seems impossible. On blue days you can bee paranoid 偏執(zhí)狂的、多疑的 that everyone is out to get you. This is not always such a bad thing. You feel frustrated and anxious, which can induce a nailbiting frenzy 狂亂 that can escalate[?esk0leit]逐步上升 into a triplechocolatemudcakeeating frenzy in a blink of an eye! On blue days you feel like you?re floating in an ocean of sadness. You?re about to burst into tears at any moment and you don?t even know why. Ultimately, you feel like you?re wandering through life without purpose. You?re not sure how much longer you can hang on, and you feel like shouting, “Will someone please shoot me!” It doesn?t take much to bring on a blue day. You might just wake up not feeling or looking your best, find some new wrinkles訣竅 , put on a little weight, or get a huge pimple粉刺、 丘疹 on your nose. You could fet your date?s name or have an embarrassing photograph published. You might get dumped, divorced, or fired, make a fool of yourself in public, be afflicted with a demeaning nickname, or just have a plain old badhair day. Maybe work is a pain in the butt. You?re under major pressure to fill someone else?s shoes,your boss is picking on you, and everyone in the office is driving you crazy. You might have a splitting headache, or a slipped dish, bad breath, a toothache, chronic gas, dry lips, or a nasty ingrown toenail. Whatever the reason, you?re convinced that someone up there doesn?t like you. Oh what to do, what to dooo? 6 The 50Percent Theory of Life I believe in the 50percent the time things are better than normal。 the other half, they are believe life is a pendulum swing. It takes time and experience to understand what normal is,and that gives me the perspective to deal with the surprises of the ?s benchmark側(cè)水準(zhǔn)點(diǎn) the parameters參數(shù) : Yes, I will ?ve dealt with the deaths of both parents, a best friend, a beloved boss and cherished of these deaths have been violent, before my eyes, or slow and stuff, and it belongs at the bottom of the there are those high points: romance and marriage to the right person。having a child and doing those Dad things like coaching my son?s baseball team, paddling around the creek in the boat while he?s swimming with the dogs。 discovering his passion so deep it manifests even in his kindness to snails,his imagination so vivid he builds a spaceship from a scattered pile of there is a vast meadow草地、牧草場(chǎng) of life in the middle, where the bad and the good flipflop 、雜技的 This is what convinces me to believe in the 50percent spring I planted corn too early in a bottomland so floodprone that neighbors felt chagrined 懊惱、委屈 at the wasted turned brutal 殘忍的 —the worst heat wave and drought in my airconditioner died, the well went dry, the marriage ended, the job lost, the money was living lyrics from a country tune—music I a surging Kansas City Royals team, bound for their first World Series, buoyed my back on that horrible summer,I soon understood that all succeeding good things merely offset the than normal wouldn?t last long. I am owed and savor the halcyon reinvigorate me for the next nasty surprise and offer assurance that I can 、旺盛 The 50percent theory even helps me see hope beyond my Royals? recent slump蕭條期、陷落 ,a field of struggling rookies sown so that some year soon we can reap an October harvest. 7 Searching for a WinWin Solution Recently I have had a dilemma I39。m trying to resolve, a weekend in the near future where I have conflicting demands and values, and need to be in two places at the same have agonized over this decision because my intuition is not giving me a clear answer and I haven39。t felt that there was a winwin I do one thing, I39。m letting down a bunch of I do the other, I39。m also missing the way I feel like a loser, not a morning I got an that direct